2 AM - Best Book in 2023 by DARA LY

Introduction

    I wrote this book at 2 AM because I couldn’t sleep. The reason? Heartbreak. It was so depressing that I could not find peace in my mind. It was a difficult time anybody could face. I decided to write down what I was thinking. Boy, did I write a lot. Indeed, most stories from this book were authentic and sad. The funny thing was that I could heal my heartbreak after I had finished writing this book.

 

At first, I didn’t think I would publish this book. Believe me, some stories were very depressing. Nobody would want to learn or experience such things. Along the way, I had learned something crucial about this book and myself too. To find out more, you will have to read by yourself. Okay? 

Anyway, I would like to remind you that this book “2AM” was written by a heartbroken person (Dara Ly the Human), and mainly, it’s for heartbroken people, so it is logical that most messages are being sent to people who need motivation.

Please read this book to find out more.

Do not take it personally.

Read more to understand about yourself.

This book is your friend.

Good luck, My Reader!

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Contents

Legal Note

Acknowledgements

Dedicated to DARA LY Books Fans!

About the Author

Introduction

Part 1: 2AM

Part 2: Sadness

Part 3: Negative Vibe

Part 4: The Conversation

Part 5: Toxic Feelings

Part 6: Reminders

Part 7: Reverse Your Life

Part 8: Redefine Yourself

Part 9: How to Find Possible Crush

Part 10: Happy to Be Alone (Again)

 

PART 1

2AM

1

The Third Type

There are two types of people in this world. Type one and type two. And there is the third type. The type of person who can never escape from heartbreak. I am the third type. 

There are two types of relationships. Type one and type two. And there is the third type. The type of relationship which will break your heart. I have suffered from that type of relationship.

There are two types of men. Type one and type two. And there is the third type. The type of man who breaks my heart. I am attracted to that type of man.

There are two types of late-night owls. Type one and type two. And there is the third type. The type of person who can’t sleep at night. Now it’s 2 AM, and I am still here, so I am the third type of late-night owl.

There are many things in my mind, but I can’t tell anyone. Clearly, I can’t tell him because he’s gone. He doesn’t care about me. I told him that I’ll be fine, but I’m not really sure if I’ll be okay. What am I going to do?    

2

Why?

I am not strong enough to accept what happened. I lie to myself, thinking that nothing bad happened between us. I pretend that you’re still here with me.

Sorry for falling in love with you. It was a mistake. Sorry for being a toxic girl. I was a bad girl. Sorry for making your life miserable. It was my fault.

Still, I want to tell you that love is about giving, not taking. I’m willing to let you go if it makes you happy. I’m willing to give you that happiness if that is what you want. I’m willing to do that even if it breaks my heart. 

I am trying so hard to forget everything that you did to me and omit you from my memory, but I cannot do that. My tears drop down ceaselessly whenever I think about you.

How long do I have to endure this nightmare? Why can’t you keep your promise? Why did you leave me?

Can you tell me why?

3

Hurtful

It is hurtful when you love someone who loves someone else; I understand how it feels. It is very hurtful when someone takes you for granted; I know what it’s like. It is beyond hurtful when someone breaks your heart and destroys your trust; I have experienced that. It is hurtful.

People choose to give up on a relationship because of these reasons. They don’t want to deal with jealousy, fear of rejection, and heartbreak. To them, love is only a fairy tale, barely real from the beginning, hurtful in the process, and really painful at the end.

I gave my heart to him, and he broke it into pieces. He took my happiness away, and he left me alone in a dark place. There’s nothing left.

I tried to make this relationship work, but he made sure it would fail. He succeeded. He never cared about me. He never wanted to be with me. He just wanted to win the game, and he thought I was a trophy. When he’s tired of me, he threw me away. It is hurtful.

4

Mistake

Falling in love with you was the first mistake. Accepting you was the second mistake. Asking you to stay was the third mistake.    

I shouldn’t have fallen in love with you. I should have listened to my friends. They were right about you. I was not the only one whom you loved. In fact, I was just a temporary person. I should have known that since the beginning.

We were supposed to be just friends. We were not supposed to fall in love with each other, but I was silly enough to believe that you could be a better person. I accepted you because I thought you could protect my heart. I was wrong. Even though you hurt me, I still gave you a second chance. You never changed. You never wanted to make it work. You only came back to me because you had nobody else. It was a mistake for letting you come back to ruin my peace once more. I was stupid enough to let you fool me over and over again.

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5

Regret

I regret that I loved you. I should have focused on my study instead of wasting my time with this relationship. I would have been happier if I hadn’t met you. My life would have been good if I had listened to myself. It was too late. It’s over between us too.

It was never going to work between us. I should have known that earlier. I was so devoted to this relationship that I had never cared about myself. I sacrificed many things just to keep it, but I still failed. I failed to keep you in my life because you wanted to go.

Your love faded away when you ran away from me, but the wound in my heart was still there. It only got worse day by day. Nobody cared about me. I had to deal with this suffering alone.

What should I do with my life now? Can anybody tell me what to do?

 

6

It Did Happen

What a fool I was! I didn’t see it coming. The fact that our relationship was a train wreck in slow motion. 

Love between two people is an agreement honored by both sides. When one side tries to terminate the deal, things might turn out to be bad for the other one. That’s what happened between us. You decided to end our love and walked away from this relationship. I’m the one who suffers the consequences, but I don’t blame you.

Before I decided to confess to you, I knew someday you would hurt me, but I prayed that it wouldn’t happen too soon. Well, it did happen. You did hurt me, a lot.

I tried to reason with myself even though my heart was aching. It hurt so much that I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t eat. I couldn’t do anything without thinking about you. It only hurt me more.

What should I do now?

(It’s 2 AM again!)

7

Can We?

I take the pill hoping to get rid of my pain, but pain never goes away. It stays. Yes, it always does. What am I supposed to do now? Get rid of my pain or the memories of you?

Why can’t you keep the promises? Why do you have to let me go? Why can’t we try to find the solutions for this problem? We’ve got it worse, and yet we pulled it off because we stuck with each other. Why can’t we stick to our commitment? Why?

I still couldn’t figure out how our relationship had turned out to be like this. I always thought you loved me and wanted to be with me forever. Please tell me that I was right. Please tell me that you still love me. Please tell me that this is a dream.

Please don’t let this nightmare destroy my life. It happened before, and it took me long enough to recover from the depression. Please don’t let the same nightmare haunt me twice. We still can make things right.

Can we? 

8

Painful

If you are reading this message right now, please stop reading it. Please do not continue reading it because it will only make your feelings unstable and unjustified. Your life is not about the past; it is about the present that you have, so you should learn to focus on the present and forget the past. Trust me, there is nothing good in it because it is just the past that slowly perishes through time. Let the time heal this wound. Forget me!

I am just a creature of habit, loving and hating and loving again and hating again. I am fueled by jealousy, and I always commit cruel things just to get revenge. I do not have a place in your heart, and you can never find true love in our relationship. Go now. You shall be free!

It’s painful to let you go, but it’s for your good. You won’t find happiness trying to keep our relationship. It is over between us, and you should find a better person. I fail to keep my promises as I can’t stay with you. You shall be happy without me, and you will have a good life. Please take care!

 

9

You’re Gone

Every time you appear in my mind, it hurts me so much. It hurts because I know that I can’t be with you anymore. It will hurt me even more when you find someone else. I don’t know if I could face that situation. 

Your smile was beautiful, and your eyes were purely innocent. I was a lucky person to be with you, but my luck had run out, and it’s over between us. Good things have come to an end, but the best thing in my life is you. (It has always been you.)

However, I’m not the best person for you. I’m just the wound in your heart, so you don’t have to feel sorry for me. Maybe I was the burden for you, so you decided to leave me. I’m just an unwanted experience in your life.

I decided to block you because I couldn’t bear the fact that you would be with someone else but not me. I try to cut off from your world, hoping I could find peace. Sometimes your friends still send me your pictures, and it hurts me even more. It reminds me so much about our past and the good times that we used to have together. Now things change, you’re gone, and I’m alone.

10

I’m Fine

You won’t have to be sorry for my pain. You won’t have to be sorry for my suffering. You won’t have to be sorry for my own heartbreak. You don’t need to feel sorry for anything. You owe me nothing. There is nothing to be sorry for.

I am not going to be sorry for myself either. I deserve that, and I accept my fate. Even though I can’t bear the fact that you’re gone, I must learn to accept it. Still, I want to tell you that I love you, and I always will. God knows I do.

However, I don’t need sympathy from anybody, not even you. You don’t have to feel guilty for leaving me. I won’t do anything stupid. Don’t worry. I’m fine.

I don’t want to look like a victim of this breakup. Before I accepted you, I knew the consequences. I shall be fine. Although I’m alone, I will be okay. My life might not be the same again, I know, but I will learn to forget you. I will try to erase the memories from the past. I hope I can do that. 

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