Am I a Cow to You? by DARA LY

Thank God, I’ve found you. From a stranger to a friend. From a friend to a crush. The impossible crush, I should say. But I don’t care. I like you, and that’s all I know. I’m not sure if you know that, but you don’t seem to care much about me. Maybe you know it? Maybe you like me too? Or maybe I’m just a fool!

Perhaps, I’m just fooling myself, believing that you might love me the same way I love you. It is the most exciting feeling, even though it is hard to believe. It is an impossible idea, and yet I am silly enough to believe the unbelievable fantasy, but my obsession with you has overruled my mind and my heart. I can’t go back, and you know that, right? The voice inside my head keeps telling me that I should go on. It tries to convince me that you would love me, one day.

Actually, that voice sounds a lot like you. “Mor. Mor. Mor.”

He: “Am I a cow to you?”

You’re not a cow, but you do sound like that when you’re singing, right? Don’t worry. No matter how you sound, it’s still sweet. Sweet like tea-orange-cat (lemon tea). Sometimes I wonder if you smell sweet too.

He: “Are you saying that I smell like a cat?” 

The funny thing about you is that you’re dumb and smart at the same time. You’re dumb because you take me for granted (What an idiot!). You’re smart because you’re smart. I mean, basically, you’re a smart guy. If you’re not smart, I wouldn’t fall for you this much, and this hard. I fall in love (with you) so hard that it hurts so much, but I don’t mind that. All I’m asking from you is a chance! Just give me a chance to prove that it’s possible for us to be together. You know? Like two birds flying together forever and…

He: “Sis, you’re dreaming. The only time I see two birds together is when I’m eating fried chicken. Actually, I’m not sure if there’re two birds or just two wings. They taste yummy also.”

Yeah, I’m just dreaming and don’t want to wake up. I’m just fooling myself. You never love me. You show me that I never have a chance with you. Never did. Never will. Why am I so stupid? Of all the people available in this world, I choose you. I can’t believe I love a heartless man who thinks of me as a friend but can’t love me anymore than that. I’m an idiot because I usually choose a stupid person!

Sometimes I pretend that I don’t really like you, but it only gets worse. The more I pretend, the more obvious it becomes. Needless to say, it is obviously clear; you only think of me as a friend.

Anyway, I want you to know that I love you. I always do, and I always will. I will be there for you when you need me. I hope you could change your mind and, one day, tell me that you love me. It’s just a dream, maybe, but I won’t give up on you. Or else!

Have you ever heard of the song “If you can’t love him, then slap him”?

Source Book: Impossible Crush (by DARA LY)

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